Especially on nights where I have a big day ahead of me. You see, apparently, I am still a child at 29 years old and sometimes I oversleep my alarm and end up missing the entire day... AKA work. Now, this is normally because I'm already exhausted and my energy is so low... I'm basically deprived on sleep and so my body just passes out for the day.
But – I can't seem to figure out how to break this crappy habit. I don't know how to get back on a routine... or do I... I just won't take the hard and necessary steps needed to do so... and I sometimes lack the motivation to do it...
I know it sounds pathetic – Especially at my age, but I just think sometimes when I am always alone (my environment), It's easy to fall off track and fall victim to the B.S. in my head.
I just know there's a way to change this – not just sleeping but becoming a healthier and happier soul.
Actually... I created an idea – a business plan that addresses these issues because there really isn't much help for this and therapy can be quite expensive and may not even address this stuff head on.
“This stuff” meaning – being healthy and doing what's good and right for you and your well-being as a way of life – even if you don't want to – due the whatever reasons, such as: being overwhelmed or stuck in your head overthinking.
So, for some time I've been debating starting a group for other people who get stuck in their heads, like me, and maybe with some external support – maybe we can find others who understand and can talk free about it...free of hate or judgment. Sometimes I just get so upset with myself because I know better.
I'm so tired of the isolation, but I'd never want to allow people in my life who just want to benefit from me or who aren't lifelong – genuine friends.
As I said before, I'm a lifelong friend. When you meet me and we hit it off, and we're cool, you can consider me a lifelong friend. Unless you screw me over or my family over, or the relationship just ends because it was toxic for some reason. Either way, I choose to have lifelong relationships because I feel that's part of this journey of life.
And I am grateful to have people who have been in my life for so long, and in my corner, supporting me (and vice versa). To me, this is truly a blessing...if not a miracle.
I'm thankful for the few women I do have in my life – these are my lifelong girls. I don't know what I would do without them, and I would do anything for them...but at the same time, I don't want to drain them, so this is my outlet now....
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